i think the hardest part is deciding what your priorities are, which depends on what ‘happiness’ is. i always see things on such fluctuating scales that i can never decide which one is the ‘correct’ one. i know that i’m not the founding father of anything. people are worried about the exact same things at school everyday, and then at home again. there’s the money factor that as much as we hate to admit it, we need. but then again, do we actually need it? what do we want it for? the ability to act on the gratitude we feel towards our family? to buy nicer newer things to fill that growing gap in our lives? if we decide to change that hobby into a passion, is that selfish?
all these things we’re ‘supposed’ to do seem like second nature, like we were born with these instincts and common logic. but the majority of it is forced on us by what we’ve been taught. if we ‘break past’ these barriers, are we discovering truth? or just hiding away from reality?
honestly, i feel like we’re all doomed in one way or another, eventually.
what if we all turn out to be fuck ups in 10 years, and everything we’re doing now is wrong. what are we doing with our lives, really.